Love Me or Hate Me

I am not gonna tell you my name coz obviously this is my secret blog. And whoever ends up reading this, sit back, relax and enjoy.

I don't know exactly where to start. But let's cut the chase and start from my never ending search for love.

5 Years ago when I was young and stupid, I've had my share of bad and great boyfriends. Poor and rich, handsome and ugly, big and small; you name it.  I love sex but there's only a couple who made me have an orgasm...ever.

So I got pregnant with this guy and lived with him. Our love story isn't actually what you call the perfect fairytale but he is an ideal man... well at least for a few months.

To cut the long story short, I am tired of him and have fallen out of love. I don't even know if I ever did love him. I don't know... Love is a very strong word that until now, I still haven't actually understood it.

The sex is bad, and we hardly ever do it. And if we ever do it, it's really boring and it's the same thing over and over again. And believe me, we've only been together for 3 years. The 'boyfriend' is actually not romantic at all. He does not take me on dates, movies and doesn't even do any romantic gestures. No romantic words, nothing.  He is also, very lazy, an asshole and an ultimate procrastinator. In other words, he has no direction in life and doesn't even try to make things better. But then, he think he does so there's no point arguing about it.

So here's the thing, since i was a little girl, I always think that there's somebody out there that's meant for each one of us, someone to grow old with and in finding them, it's all a matter of choices and decisions. I haven't found the love of my life, that I know for sure.

So this blog will tell you everything.. and I mean everything (even the juicy parts) of my quest for the right guy. Let me tell you this ahead: this blog will tell you every bad thing i do. Cheat, lie, manipulate, flirt, you name it.  So love me or hate me, i do not care.